perfect little dream. the kind that hurts the most. forgot how it feels. well, almost. no one to blame. always the same. open my eyes. wake up in flames.

it took you to make me realize it took you to make me see the light smashed up my sanity smashed up my integrity smashed up what i believed in smashed up what's left of me smashed up my everything smashed up all that was true gonna smash myself to pieces i don't know what else to do

covered in hope. and vaseline. still cannot fix. this broken machine. watching the hole. it used to be mine. just watching it burn. in my steady systematic decline. of the trust. i will betray. give it to me i throw it away. after everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become.

i tried i gave up throw it away